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2012

2011-12-31T17:10:00.003+08:00

The year is coming to an end. Looking back at the past year, it was neither a smooth nor uneventful journey for me at least. I've lost friends, gained new ones. I've lost weight, gained some pounds. I've cowered, gained some strength. Thinking back, I've made silly choices, who hasn't?

I am thankful towards the selected few who have added flavor to my 'bowl of noodles'. I'll bring forward my cherish, hope and love to the new year and years thereafter. I'm wishing all a happy new year!

Parodies all the way!

2011-12-08T15:42:00.001+08:00

I'm a huge fan of parodies because I think they're so damn funny! Like if you're in a lousy mood, watch a parody on YouTube & you will instantly feel so much better. Laughing is the best cure they say. I shall list a few of my all-time favourites.

1. Teach Me How to Dobby

Parody of: Teach Me How to Dougie

Errbody Dobby ErrErrbody Dobby. Errbody Dobby you ain't messing with my Dobby.

2. I'd Chop My Head Off for You

Parody of: Grenade

So true, We girls do not need guys to make a portrait of us out of audio tapes or even protect us from robots or futuristic apes. What we need is for you to take care of the DISHES and the TRASH and take that TANGO CLASS.

3. Glitter Puke

Parody of: Tik Tok

I love the Shrek & Donkey part at the start haha.

4. White and Nerdy

Parody of: Ridin' Dirty

This is truly a classic. "Spend my nights with a roll of bubble wrap. Pop, pop hope no one sees me get freaky." Why does it sound like something I'll do? Hawhaw.

5. Octomum Song

Parody of: Low

Parodies to last you for the coming Christmas!! (:

The Truth (part 2)

2011-12-01T01:51:00.000+08:00

I would suggest all readers to read The Truth (part 1) first if not, you will not get this post at all. Well, I must have pissed her off pretty badly.......

For her to use her own sister.

& of course I replied. She did wish me luck for A' Levels afterall.

The 'innocent bystander' trick again, why am I not surprised? Misleading others into thinking she did nothing (openly at least) while I was the one not relinquishing my hold on her. But alas, I found out she was painting me in an immoral picture to her whole art class (with her ex of course). Hence, the post on facebook.

People asked me why I did it, is it worth it? To put it simply, it was out of rage and pure disgust. I have never met a second person capable of the things she do. Anyway, I've decided to conceal the identity of her sister because she did me no harm other than sarcasm. I feel bad actually, publicising our conversation but I'm sorry, her sister forced my hand.

I take that her cousin and halloween dude didn't take a liking to the post.

You should have seen it coming. It was already out of proportion when the groupie decided to attack me and people around me unbashedly. Or were they expecting me to just sit there and take what's coming at me? Don't be naive. I did say I don't take shit from anybody. On a random thought: my boyf don't take A' Levels.

Another friend of hers. 真是朋友满天下.

I'm humoured. Why do people think that 'cut, copy & paste' takes great time and effort? Unless you're using the Colossus (first electric computer) that is. Irony, irony, irony. When I single-handedly faced them, Chelsea said I had no friends. When I had some minor support (people liking the album), they became hyped fans. What are you then? Die-hard loyal number 1 fan to dear Cherie?

This came half a month later.

I let the past incidences slide without amplifying it. Because I knew I already had the upper-hand and it's normal for anguished people to vent their frustrations somewhere. Seeing that they're able to joke about bringing my boyf's mother to a concert proved them past the 'blinded-by-fury' stage. I had probable cause to act. You don't tarnish a man's mother's name and expect to walk free. You don't.

I pity all those who defended her though. A mutual friend went up to ask her why did she do all those things (The Truth Part 1) and guess what she replied?

"It's not me. I already asked them to stop but they don't want to because they were angry for me." (similar, not exact words)

I want to laugh. Like 'hug-my-tummy-roar-in-laughter' kind of laugh. Stopped them? While feeding information at the other end? Like anyone will ever believe that bullcrap. Oh, so you realise it was an erroneous move and conveniently shoved the blame up your friends' arses. She even gave them a motive, "they were angry for me". So readers, dear Cherie is innocent of all the nasty tweets. It was her friends who orchestrated the whole damn show. Let's not 冤枉‘好人’.

Around the same time, anonymous camper(s) appeared on my formspring.

keywords: pathetic, out of proportion, pest, God, supporters, lame, fuck off

This came about a week later when I did not reply the first one.

I cannot be a 100% sure it's them but given the circumstances, timing and the language used, I'll bet it's them.

This came roughly the same time as concert joke.

I guess it must have been disappointing that I'm not a cheat or had affairs unlike someone. They did try oh-so-hard to paint me as a whore. *remember the 狗男女 tweet in part 1? /(>o<)/ This must have been the last resort. By pretending to be my 奸夫 haha. & I wonder what kind of fetish is that? Is it a new trend? If so, I must rush to get blue coloured corset and Sanrio character underwear!!!

Too bad for them, my boyf did not take it as a joking matter. I then texted mutual friend to make them stop.

Another shocking reply: She said very firmly it's not her friends but not sure whether it's Halloween dude or not. She's not very close with him.

Hello halloween dude. Heard that? After defending her more vigorously than her 2 lovers, she is NOT CLOSE with you at all. She possibly made you the scapegoat for what's on my formspring. Despite going out with her, on talking terms with her ex boyf & got scolded for the sake of her, she does not even list you under her 'friends'. But please, don't feel too sad. She did try to protect your identity(for unknown reasons). When you were still a little face behind shades and absolutely irritating plus nameless, friends have been trying to ask about your identity from her. But all she replied was "he is very handsome", reluctant to reveal you.

But alas, she did not expect that you will reveal yourself.

I know who you are. I've heard about you since last year from Cherie herself of course. And boy, your display picture from facebook.......

I couldn't tell that you had ginormous penis the size of David Beckham's. You must be so well endowed that you blatantly, outrightly labelled my boyf's manhood as a 'smelly pencil dick'. Thank you for your concern on my boyf not being able to satisfy me. I sincerely hope Chelsea is satisfied with yours given your relationship.

And now to the main question most people have in mind. About Cherie's infidelity.

J is supposedly the 2nd guy.

Tried to make it a joke to seem less real.

This is the answer she deleted off formspring. Lucky me for saving the screenshot in my iPhone.

Maybe our definitions of cheating are different. The wiki definition is 'Infidelity can occur in relation to physical intimacy and/or emotional intimacy. The impact of infidelity is said to be not only about sex outside the relationship, but also about trust, betrayal, lying and disloyalty'. I guess hers is 'have sex' in order to qualify.

I shall not go into details of her relationship with J because J did nothing wrong to me and if I do so, it will not be fair to J. But what I can say is, they shared both physical and emotional intimacy. On top of that, she did lie or purposely hid her whereabouts from her then boyf. If she didn't want her then boyf to know, most probably she knew her behaviour was wrong. The knowledge of the 'love triangle' was not exclusive to my clique and they were not exactly "discreet" anyway.

Furthermore, I'm sure groupie and her family were also aware of it. NONE of her friends refuted that she did not cheat. I repeat, NONE. A good friend of mine told me that Cherie's own dad texted her when J went to her house after her then bf left: "Hey, is the handsome korean guy the reason why you made ** leave so early"? (similar)

By the way, I emphasized on her infidelity not bacause I want to meddle in her "personal life", but to return her favour. ^^ She did try to paint me as an easy woman, lusting for her ego boyf. It's only fair that I do the same to her but of course, mine is built on facts. Hers is built entirely out of perception and lies. Her groupie supported her too by further degrading me (loose, easy etc).

有因必有果. 这叫‘自食其果’. For numerous times, she has labelled other girls in a less graceful manner(based on her own deductions) and was not afraid to spread it. Now, she is getting labelled herself for things she DID do.

***P.S

This appeared on my formspring a couple days ago. Hence, the blogpost.

2011-11-27T02:28:00.001+08:00

Had a pretty awesome day with twin (left) today and I swear she's really sweet to me.

1. Supposed to meet her at 12 but I woke up late. She waited till 1.30.
2. Went to the flea at Singapore Flyer but instead of shopping for herself, went to keep a lookout for suitable clothes for me.
3. Followed me home to take a pair of shoes.
4. While I was the emcee for a community event, she sat at the hawker centre nearby for 3 hours!!
5. Had dinner with me at my boyf's workplace.

Plus, the most memorable time was when she came down to my house (Ang Mo Kio) all the way from her school (Dover) just so I can sleep in longer!!!!! Not only that, she waited for me to prepare (bathe, dress-up etc) and endured scratches from Mr Scott! WHY SHE SO GOOD TO MEEEEE. \(>.<)/

I must have accumulated good karma from past lives or did enough good deeds to receive a God-send friend like her. She's also the reason why I cherish all my friends so much because you'll never know, that friendship could last a lifetime.

I realised it's been nearly a year since I last blogged. While I was away, I put on weight, got new pets, cut my fringe, cleared A' Levels, became a relief teacher & an emcee. Let me end off with one of my findings: I LOOK BETTER WHEN I DON'T SMILE RIGHT?

FAVOURITE WORD <3

2010-12-12T01:42:00.001+08:00

For the expressionist.

For the fun-loving.

For the angsts.

Best of all, it is understood internationally.

2010-12-08T17:29:00.000+08:00

It's been such a boring day.

All I do is play Sims 3 all day. ):

Bon Voyage ♥

2010-11-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

Sonia is off to Taiwan today. I guess I'll miss her.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
To cherie:
Tough times never last, but tough people do.
- Robert Shuller

2010-11-24T08:53:00.000+08:00

"Dobby never meant to kill. Dobby only meant to maim, or seriously injure."

- Harry Potter & the Deathly Hallows

Apple Juice Saga Part 2

2010-11-22T18:07:00.001+08:00

EXAMINATIONS

1. Claimed to pass Literature (promo) paper & that she is currently taking the Lit supplementary paper not because she failed but because to pull up her grades.

(There are many people who knew that she only obtained a ‘S’ grade. She never passed.)

2. Lied about passing Economics (promo) paper too.

(There is a name list that states who failed and needs to take the sup paper. This group of people would then attend separate classes from us. Her name appeared on the list.)

IDENTITY

1. Claimed that ‘Johanna’ is her real middle name and is found in her identification papers.

(Do you see Johanna on the A Levels name list?)

2. She would always go around telling others that her grandfather is a born and bred German and she likes to classify her looks as being '’mixed’.

(A lot of people I asked definitely don’t find her looking like other ethnic groups other than Asian. Also, spot any family portraits of hers before?)

3. Claims that her auntie/uncle is European and that her 2 beautiful cousins have blue eyes, fair hair etc..

(Again, any family portrait spotted?)

HEALTH

1. Claimed to have a long scar across her stomach due to a stomach surgery in Australia last year.

(I have slept/bathed/changed with her during the 2 weeks in China & I have never seen that scar. She always faces her back towards me or when I peep, always cover her tummy area with her hands.)

2. Claimed to be hospitalized for a week due to some stitch surgery.

(I’ve never heard of surgery for stitches and she came back to school just days later, conveniently after the project work WR submission dateline.)

(It is supposed to be an open surgery, how come she can bend over and stuff? Won’t her stitches break open?)

(Furthermore, where is the Band-Aid on her hands? You need to attach a drip when you have surgery or to apply anaesthesia. What? Did the doctor just knock her out with chloroform like we did to the frogs in biology lessons?)

(& can eat solid food just after a major operation! Hilarious)

LOVE

1. Claimed that her boyfriend is from some International school and is an European. When my classmate asked for the name of her ang-moh boyfriend, she said John Smith.

(I believe some of you know John Smith. He is from YJC and he is very much Chinese.)

(She has been seen out with him in Paragon during her birthday and they were spotted holding hands in a hospital.)

I wonder how would he feel when all the time, her girlfriend has been telling me how ugly he was and how annoyed she was by him pestering/liking her. & obviously she was very ashamed or unhappy to have him as a lover since she went to great lengths to conceal the identity of her ‘real’ boyfriend.

WEALTH

1. Always bragged about on getting that new Kate Spade wallet or just bought a pair of Christian Louboutins and some other branded goods.

(I have been out with her, others have been out with her. But has anyone seen her with branded items other than that one Ralph Lauren bag that doesn’t cost much? Even me carry LV bags despite my family not being very wealthy.)

2. Received $8888 angpow money from her grandfather during CNY which brings her a five-digit sum red packet money in total.

(Do you believe it?)

3. Asked a friend of mine how much a 2nd hand iPod costs and where to get it cheap. Said that she was asking on behalf of her sister.

(If your family is rich, surely your sister can afford an iPod touch which costs a mere $248. Btw, not long after she asked, she got herself a new iPod touch. Oh wait, maybe it’s not that new)

*Any similarities between this post to any person is simply purely coincidental (:

2010-11-17T00:18:00.000+08:00

2010-11-13T23:37:00.000+08:00

I bet Apple Juice read my blog.

She customized her facebook to not show her wall to me & other friends. But we can still view her info + photos.

She also removed 'Queens, New York' from her profile.

You think that by doing so, people will not think it's you?

COWARD.

Apple Juice Saga Part 1

2010-11-10T10:43:00.000+08:00

Truth or lie, be the judge for yourself.

CAREER

She claims to be an international 'supermodel', flying to Australia yearly for a photoshoot. & this has been happening since she was a KID.

(It sounds rather ridiculous. I've never seen a model who doesn't shave her EYEBROWS. & no one has ever seen the magazine or photos before.)

EDUCATION

1. Says that she studied primary school in FRANCE.

(However, failed to mention which school + has no french friends in her facebook account. Did I mention she cannot SPEAK a word of french? *I know cause I tested*)

2. Claimed to take third language (french) in secondary school.

(As Singaporeans, we know that only students in Special Stream are allowed to take thind language. She is from Normal Academic (NA) Stream. I even pretended to be a parent and called her school to see if special arrangements could be made for my child who is half-french. Results is: CANNOT!)

3. Stated that she took PRIVATE O'Levels pure physics and gotten an 'A1'. Went on to bitch about YJC not allowing her to enter into the science stream.

(I've checked MOE websites. & surprisingly, I found out that you cannot be a private student while registered as a school student in the same year. &, YJC would definitely accept her if her pure physics really have gotten an 'A1' that she's not even qualified to take in the first place. Just admit it, your results *COMBINED SCIENCE* failed to meet the requirements. )

EVENTS

I find this the funniest. After Universal Studio Singapore(USS) opened not long, she started to boast about being there with her 70+ years old grandpa who even sat on the roller coaster! Friends & I decided to prank her in October, asking for prices of USS tickets. At first, ask us to google then went on to reveal that she went on free tickets together with her friends.

(Bring gramps out with friends? LOL. Did I mention that the roller coaster was never opened? So she sat on an imaginary one. Besides, people who have REALLY been there told me that the age limit for the roller coaster ride is 60.)

FAME

1. Claimed to have 2 facebook accounts. One very famous, contains all her outside friends & one which she is using now, made just for YJC people only. Says someone in YJ got her private account but I can't remember who (:

(Apparently, even her closest friends have no access to the account. If her current facebook account is reserved for YJ people only, why add her secondary school friends plus some outside friends? I'll probably retract this post if ANYONE has seen her second account which I seriously doubt so.)

2. Make herself seem highly important and famous in her secondary school.

(A source stated that she was highly unpopular in her school, practically a nobody like she is now in YJC. & she may have copied a certain someone from her school. *the story will be reserved for later parts*)

HOUSE

1. Owns a bungalow in Botanic Gardens but family does not live there, only 2 maids.

(Got bungalow don't want to stay, go live in some HDB flats from a secluded district? Botanic Gardens should be somewhere near Orchard which is so much nearer to our school. Maybe she enjoys travelling to as far as Bukit Panjang.)

2. Apparently, she says that the HDB flat she is living in now is actually 4 flats combined together! 2 units on the upper floor plus 2 units on the lower floor. Claimed to have staircase somemore due to the collapse of ceiling so construct one.

(Singapore law states that the maximum no. of flats allowed to combine together is 2. Furthermore, a Singaporean family is only allowed to own 1 flat.)

(Friends & I decided to text her again and told her about what I mentioned above. Now she says that is only 2 flats combined together. But, she clearly mentioned to NUMEROUS people that it was 4 in the first place. Outright lie.)

NATIONALITY

1. Told everyone that she is a citizen of USA/come from USA. In school, when asked to write an essay on 'challenges faced by your home country', she wrote about USA. Her facebook also states that she is from Queens, New York.

(I went on overseas trip with her and she holds a SINGAPOREAN passport. How to claim school subsidy if she is not a Singaporean? She also holds a Pink IC & student concession pass.)

2. Owns DOUBLE PASSPORTS, Australian & Singaporean.

(Not going to say much, maybe she is a secret spy agent from Bourne Ultimatum or some movie.)

*Any similarities between this post to any person is simply purely coincidental (:

2010-11-10T09:32:00.000+08:00

Memory is always infinitely more beautiful than reality.

Shouldn't it be IMAGINATION instead?

2010-08-06T10:22:00.000+08:00

I LOVE TYQ. :D

FACEBOOK 2

2010-08-01T21:58:00.001+08:00

DETAILS :

I added about 20 odd people, mostly from 'hacker's account, bringing my total number of friends to about 882-883.

After realising I had to log in using my old password, I checked and found 11 people deleted , the unaccounted for is 'you-know-who'.

I thought to myself, wondering whether could they delete me from their accounts after accepting me and found it to be not possible. Why would someone accept you again if they are determined to delete you?

Seriously, I do not know what she is thinking. Bet she was laughing over my status updates when I complained that fb deleted my friends or when my friends asked if I deleted them.

FACEBOOK

2010-08-01T17:35:00.001+08:00

Now, everyone knows I have problems with facebook as my friends kept being deleted. At first I thought it was a bug, but then no. It points otherwise. I believe it has been hacked from someone I knew.

1) My friends are not deleted randomly nor the newest added. It specifically targeted yishun junior college friends.
Argument : But there could be a facebook bug that deleted people from your 'list' what.
Answer : I purposely left out some YJC people from the 'YJC list' and guess what? DELETED.

2) I changed my password numerous times and whenever it was resetted, for sure my friends were deleted.
Argument : But how can someone know your new password?
Answer : Both my hotmail and facebook account share the same password initially. I only changed the fb's password. It is possible that someone reported that I lost my fb password and reset it from my email, hence why it always changes back to the original password.

3) I noted the pattern and kept track of who was deleted, it always happen to be common friends with the hacker.
Argument : But, is all your common friends deleted? She left out some this time right?
Answer : There was once all our common friends were deleted, but I persistently added people back, numerous times in fact. And slowly, my classmates were left alone and other class people who frequented my fb occassionally were left alone. Now, it's only people who do not know the truth about her who were deleted.

4) I'm sure it's a person not a bug unless it can log off your account, resets your password and delete specific friends.
Argument : Can you substantiate that?
Answer : I own an iPhone and some of my apps require me to log in onto facebook. It does not log out by itself even if I log in on a computer. But everytime it logs out, it tells me to log in again and when I type in my new password, it shows invalid password and when I try my old password, VOILA! I'm sure to see a bout of deleted friends AGAIN.

5) The hacker has my password to both my facebook and email and I remember saying that both passwords were the same.

Argument : But how come you're so sure she remembered it?

Answer : We joke once or twice about my password and thus she would have remembered it definitely.

People would question me about her motives behind those actions and I would say 'immature, insecure and insanely jealous'.

Longer life expectancy

2010-06-18T21:08:00.000+08:00

A bizarre study carried out by German researchers suggests that staring at women's breast is good for men's health and increase their life expectancy.

Accordng to Dr. Karen Weatherby, a gerontologist and author of the study, gawking at women's breasts is a healthy practice, almost at par with an intense exercise regime, that prolongs the lifespan of a man by 5 years.

She added, " Just 10 minutes of staring at the charms of a well-endowed female, is roughly equivalent to a 30 minutes aerobics session ".

So why spend hundreds or thousands for fitness packages? Just ogle at........

I'm sure these work the same as well, if you cover the stomach (:

You gotta admit that there is a lack of well-endowed females in Singapore. Many are small 'As' or petite 'Bs'. Might as well include the male population.

http://www.medguru.com/

2010-06-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

Recommended by Coco to view this woman's fb.
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000384701703&v=wall#!/profile.php?id=100000384701703&v=wall

Her source of fixation, ryankoh.

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000384701703&v=wall#!/ryann.koh?ref=ts

Felicia really redefines english :D

ha si burn -> husband

per per eye share toe -> purple eyeshadow

frog ever -> forever

cock ka cock la -> coca cola

god breast you -> God bless you

koran -> korean

ex pan see -> expensive

meh maid -> mermaid

Do read the photo comments if you ever view their fb.

2010-06-05T01:35:00.000+08:00

I'm going through a mid-teen crisis /:

* I weigh 5 kilos more than I'm supposed to.
* I'm broke (even for schoolkid standards).
* Christian Bale will never marry me.
* I have ginormous pile of homework.
* I'm watching Shrek 1, 2 and 3 (again)!
* My mum is a dwarf
* My sis is a dwarf
* My boyfriend is a dwarf
* Which makes me a dwarf too! [>.<]

Most of us grew up with threats.

2010-05-31T16:34:00.000+08:00

You naughty somemore, I ask the ahbunehneh/mangali to catch you ah!

MEN WHO HAVE LOUSY PICK-UP LINES.

2010-05-29T23:48:00.000+08:00

SERIOUSLY, SOME MEN ARE RETARDED.
especially the ones who pose beside bikes and have like 8866656 girls on fb.

MEN 1

ahhuat : hi, can make fren?
me : NO, who are you.
ahhuat : U work in policlinic?
me : no.
ahhuat : my name ahhuat, 20 can intro?
me : it's on my fb. how did u get my msn?
ahhuat : I search polyclinic, see comment click in see ur dp look like lo. then add u on fb and msn.
me : ok. [laughs damn badly in background]
ahhuat : u working or schooling?
me : yishun jc.
ahhuat : oh wer is it?
me : [no reply, laughs w/ friend]
ahhuat : i stay yishun , u stay wer?

Some men don't really know how to start a conversation. & I hate it when people ask redundant questions when they can find the answers.

MEN 2

ahheng : hi can be fwen
me : no
ahheng : can chat?
me : no
ahheng : u free?
me : no
ahheng : can have your number?
me : no
ahheng : give la, i text u
me : NO
ahheng : fuck! u tink u beli pretty izit?
me : [block,delete,laugh]

Some men just refuse to take no for an answer.

Mundane

2010-03-01T20:15:00.000+08:00

Bitching session!

Zhang laoshi was freaking boring during the ningbo trip briefing la. I seriously do not know why he has to have so many meetings with us. Can't he just do it in one shot? Until now, still discussing performance plans and collecting of money only. WTF, we are going away for Bintan next week, can't he just give me the 'to-bring list'?

-deleted-

Found new bitching kaki already! Coco and I kept gossiping during chinese lesson today.

Did i mention that my skirt was wet and I had to wear fatqueen's pinafore around school today? Freaking suaku I tell you, kept finding the belt and realised it's at the back of the pinafore itself ! /:

amnotashamedamnotashamedamnotashamedamnotashamedamnotashamed

SCHOOL!

2010-02-07T04:06:00.000+08:00

Omgawd, I seriously do not get why our orientation is so long! It's like machiam 2 1/2 weeks. I've completed 1 1/2 weeks so far and I've never made it on time for assembly.

Anyway, Jam and hop night was pretty fun if you exclude the slow, un-highable music. We were the first few to start the 'pushing' of people forward and gradually everybody's doing it.

And it's my 3 1/2 year anniversary today! Woohoo!

Rodney woo ah ah. Chang chang walla walla bang bang.

SURNAME WOES

2010-01-23T00:22:00.000+08:00

STOP CALLING ME STELLA TAN!

Workplaces, banks, schools, hospitals, MOE and even the birthcert registry gets my surname wrong! What is wrong with the surname TAI?

-At the polyclinic-

staff : Tan Xin Yi..Tan Xin Yi..Tan Xin Yi!
me : *stammers* Are you calling Tai Xin Yi Stella?
staff : Tan Xin Yi right?
me : *peeks at medicine* It's TAI XIN YI!
staff : OHKAY! ......................TAN Xin Yi! Please collect your medicine!
me : *speechless*

It sucks! Having to go down to main offices just to change TAN to TAI on my paycheque. I recently went down to UOB to change my ATM card and guess what is embossed on my card again? TAN! I'm the only person in my family who has such problems. What intrigues me is that it's always mistaken as TAN and not Tay or whatever which is weird.

I WANT MY SURNAME BACK. /:

HAPPY F-ING NEW YEAR! :D

2010-01-01T20:28:00.000+08:00

Spent my countdown sitting at home and watching sad movies that made me cry the whole night. Watched and read of at least 10 abused and murdered childrens' stories such as the movie Aurore. Fucking sad I tell you! So there, I was bawling my eyes out while others celebrated with big grins and friendly hugs.

However on 010110, my boyfriend compensated over my lack of celebration by coming over to my house to accompany me! (L) Though he had to work later and I had to go give tuition to an autistic child.

Being a tutor changed my life somehow. It gives me a sense of comfort and accomplishment knowing that I could help someone using my own efforts. & to see a smile on an autistic child's face? PRICELESS (:

2009-12-31T18:31:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna get a NDS ! x1000

I want pokemon.
I want digimon.
I want nintendogs/horses/cows whatever they have.
I want cooking mama !

I am utterly depressed that nearly everyone I see carries a NDS. Even the bangs monster just bought one!

♥

2009-12-16T11:38:00.000+08:00

My romantic dreams have come to an officially dead-end.

Punishing of wives

2009-12-02T00:42:00.000+08:00

Seriously? Man are allowed to beat women if they are disobedient? Wifes go through labour pains to bore children, do the chores and look after the family. Yet, treated like dogs. If my man dares to ever hit me, I'll cut his balls up.

p.s : Yulin says we should so migrate to middle-eastern countries. I bet he loves the 4 wives part. DREAM ON (:

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2009-11-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

Been thinking lately. I was wondering if I did make a correct decision by forsaking the overseas education. Everytime I see a person getting to/off school and everytime I hear someone talking about school, I just sit there and stone, thinking of why am I stranded with no school and possibly, none in future. Sometimes, it hurts so much it sucks. Even my mum is taking up a course still at her age.

I do blame myself for times, for not having the courage to start anew, for not having the perseverance to endure and perhaps afraid that something might screw up again with processes.

Despite reassuring myself that I made the correct decision, seeing I kept my family, friends , boyfriend and familiarity : I can't help feeling a little regretful. I would never be able to be a veterinarian.

Life sucks a little currently but I can't have the best of both worlds, right?

GENTING TRIP IS MAKING ME COME.

2009-11-20T23:48:00.000+08:00

6 very happy people(Lance, Dino, YuQian, QiQin, Yulin and me) is going away to Genting at 6.30 in the morning of 20th December! We will be there for 3 days and I AM SO EXCITEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD! (:

I've already chosen my favourite pyjamas to pack.

MAKEOVER/STEAMBOAT/MOVIE.

2009-11-18T23:29:00.000+08:00

Met up with Jamie and went to yuqian's house. Jamie curled my hair, did my make-up and everything was perfect till the lipstick part. I look like a tranny seriously, Dino did pacify me however, by telling me I have the 'lao ban niang' look.

Met up with bf later and 5 of us went to eat steamboat at Bugis. Thank god it wasn't tiantian. Tiantian is just so overrated and they seldom refill crabs which sucks cause I'm a crab person. We ate like TONS of food. I bet Dino felt helpless as the rest of us continued binge-eating when he was full. LMAO, he eats sooooo little! Need training sessions with us more often.

Caught a midnight movie afterwards at The Cathay. Paranormal activity was not bad, really spooked cause they have so much spooky scenes. & DINO SCREAMED(shouted)! which was funny.

*Jamie is really really good at curling hair and eye meke-up.

fly high.

2009-10-03T02:47:00.000+08:00

If you can't accept me at my worst,
you don't deserve me at my best.

I promise I'll have interesting updates SOON!

xoxo

230809!

2009-08-23T16:29:00.000+08:00

I'm hooked to webcam shots ! OMFG. Taken at lynn's house during sleepover.

17072009

2009-07-17T22:39:00.000+08:00

Went back to SRJC today! & I didn't say hi to maykoh(superrrrr proud of myself) (:
Met my previous schoolmates and realised how much they meant to me, except HAIRY.

Talked to Serena about aunt and her behaviours. I told her that she was in a religion called Jehovah's witnesses. She told me that it wasn't really christian or it was a more extreme side of christianity ( near terrorist probably ). & the believes that they hold on to are kinda warped, which explains her bizarre behaviours at home. I briefly mentioned about donating blood after reading a poster and she immediately snapped and told me that her religion don't allow transfusion of blood. Serena then told me about this documentary about a man with face tumour who was facing death refused to undergo surgery because he didn't want to accept other people's blood as he was jehovah witness too.

Well I don't care anything about her believes or religion but she should not forcefully force it on me. It's her religion, not mine. Not in the past, present or future. NEVER.

On a cheerful side, Harry Potter wasn't as bad I thought it would be. Maybe because I knew the story. It annoyed my bf to the core, without a proper ending. Haha, it was overall a very fun day with Lynn, hamster, bf and people from SRJC. I LOVE YOU ALL!

2009-07-09T06:11:00.000+08:00

Life is not all sunshine and rainbows,
But I'll manage.

:D

2009-07-06T01:35:00.001+08:00

A happy smile on a hectic day. (with barbara)

Anyway, I'm off to Southport tomorrow for holiday. Click to see the place I'm going!
http://www.pontins-southport.com

GRIEF

2009-07-04T02:04:00.000+08:00

At first it was just loud noises, I didn't take notice of it much. Then I heard shouting and my uncle's cries of pain. It escalated to quarrels and I could hear my name clearly. My aunt had accused me of breaking up and ruining the family,and she was punching my uncle, slamming things and yelling at her top of her voice 'I feel like beating people up'. All because I wore shorts to school today(encouraged by school because we had loads of activities).

I stood at a corner sobbing hysterically, my uncle was nice. He stood by me. I felt cheated, utterly let down. All the talks of compromise saying I could wear shorts once in awhile outside but try to keep it minimal are lies. I did as what I was told, I only wore it outside twice in 3 weeks. Her reason was it attracted the wrong kind of attention.

Perverts, rapists, paedophiles don't target their victims based on shorts(I was wearing normal shorts, not the obscene show-half-an-arse type). Old women aged 80 are raped in their homes, kids were raped as young as 4, women in middle eastern countries get raped too. Were they all wearing shorts ? NO! Islamic women in middleeastern countries wear long tunics, covering every single part of their body except the eyes and they do get cases of sexual assaults too. So it is absolutely ridiculous to say that all women in shorts (school shorts, casual shorts, shorts above the knee) automatically attract attention.

Another reason she gave while screaming is that she didn't like it. She didn't like me wetting the bathroom floor so I squeeze myself against the wall when I bathe. She didn't like me sniffing my nose, I try my hardest not to even when I'm having a flu. She didn't like partying or sleepovers so I gave my word that I will keep it to the minimal. She didn't like me spending money on food outside so I agreed to take packed lunches(made by myself). It's dictatorship. I don't feel like I'm being treated or respected at all as a human being. I'm oppressed in every single thing I do. She only thought of what she likes and dislikes. She has never considered my feelings or my likings at all. I like wearing what I wear and I know my limits of what to wear. How would she feel if I say I don't like gardening and I forbade her to do it(although she loves it)?

I wonder if she felt just because I live under her roof for free, she has the authority to exert full control over me, knowing that if I get thrown out of the house, I won't have the ability to survive? That's called bullying.

I've made up my mind, if ever possible, I will not and would not choose to live with a maniacpsychotic bitch like her. Her tantrums are unpredictable and without warnings.

p.s , I'm banned from wearing anything above the knee inside and outside of the house. God bless.

LONDON TRIP

2009-07-03T01:12:00.000+08:00

One word : EXCITING. (:

CHERRY COKE

2009-07-01T03:49:00.000+08:00

You'll never find this in Singapore, NEVER!

PHASEL WOODS

2009-07-01T03:18:00.000+08:00

Second day of induction week, heading off to Phasel Woods near Kings Langley for stuff like team-bonding games, pot-holing, rock climbing and loads of obstacle courses with school people.

Before boarding the bus, sitting at grasspatch outside school (:

Team-bonding games :

In a team with, Sana, Husnain, Iram, Clan and others. Totally beat the other team in every single challenge we had except tug-o-war. They had more people. But it was really really fun.

Pot-holing:

It's a really small tunnel underground that you will literally have to crawl on your bellies and stuff. Pitch black and everything, and ALOT of mud. Hate it.

Obstacle courses:

Had to go through alot of obstacles, mainly balancing ones and crawling under ropes etc. I couldn't and wouldn't do most of it. However, we were made to pair-up afterwards(mostly a boy and a girl). Paired up with Ashley only to realise that he is supposed to guide me through the entire obstacle course without touching me(only giving verbal help) while I'm BLINDFOLDED! I managed to complete it though which is weird. I couldn't do it with my eyes open but I could do it with my eyes closed. Ashley got it harder. He was blindfolded afterwards and had to carry a cup of water while doing it.

Whenever water is involved, people get wet. I was caught in between a water assault between Husnain and Ashley, landing myself half wet! Clan got me wetter though, by hugging me.

Rock-climbing:

Didn't manage to get to the top but at least I tried my hardest. haha. Managed to catch a shot of Sana's arse while she was busy reaching for the top.

Lastly, my sunburnt feet with a weird pattern on it because of my sandals!

WEEK 3

2009-06-30T01:19:00.000+08:00

Bedside flower of the week. (:

JEWELLERY BOX

2009-06-30T00:13:00.000+08:00

Started first day of Induction week in school. Got loads of talks and the people were very nice to me, probably because I was the only chinese girl there today. Went to Charlotte's house during lunch break though with Molly, Laura and Barbara, nice people :D

Got bored 2 days back and I decided to decorate a really cheap jewellery box into something more glam and fit for my trinkets and stuff.

Original :
After:
Pretty? :D

Mood: Ecstactic.

2009-06-28T11:18:00.000+08:00

Lunch for today :

Prawns with mash potato. (:

Had chinese takeaway for dinner though.

Mood: Bloated

2009-06-27T11:41:00.000+08:00

I just heard my neighbour scream ' FUCK OFF' to her dog. Neat.

Bought these from Lynn's Cousin's blogshop. Love it :D

Mood: Apathetic

2009-06-18T10:52:00.000+08:00

Top 10 never to be accomplished childhood dreams:

1. Migrate and move to an european country, start up a veterinary clinic at my backyard.
2. Prince charming will drive me to prom in an Lamborghini.
3. Own a pet hospital as big as TanTockSeng in Singapore.
4. Dressup day every week in school where we wear victorian costumes.
5. Ride a dolphin to school.
6. Be a professional ballerina and perform at Sydney's Opera house.
7. Be a size 4 model.
8. Andy Lau asking for my hand in marriage.
9. Jay Chou is my brother.
10. To get married before 25.

It's so silly (:

Mood : Bored.